Author Archives: BigBalloonReadyToFly

About BigBalloonReadyToFly

I often feel like a balloon ready to fly off this big blue marble! I openly write about depression and post traumatic stress. Born & raised in NYC from a Costa Rican/Nicaraguan family. I have ongoing medical condition that has caused me to experience 50+ bone fractures. I stopped counting at 50. It's called Osteogenesis Imperfecta. I attended a school for the disabled prior to mainstreaming. I moved to Boston in 1983 for college and soon after became involved in local union and community politics as well as a peace activist. My high points have been my marriage, my step-motherhood and re-connecting with my Papa as an adult. Since 2004, I have experienced much grief due to the deaths of my stepsons and parents. I am a witness and survivor of the 2013 Boston Marathon bombing. I write prose and poetry in both English and Spanish. I live with my dog Sugar in Roslindale, MA.

“Unbreakable” by Jeanine Tesori

I know how everyone else’s life Is supposed to fly by Then someone turns and says What about you? And I stand here Mouth open Mind blank This should have all work itself out by now The map of my … Continue reading

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Justice, Justice, Justice

Today is April 20, 2021, the day that Derek Chauvin was found guilty of killing George Floyd. There were three counts and the verdicts were GUILTY, GUILTY, GUILTY. Ode to George Floyd Most animals are born with a throat. a … Continue reading

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This MOMENT

The gray, the gray, the gray. I don’t mind the snow. I do the gray skies that appears, right before and with the flakes. Those gray clouds fill my headspace, with cottonballs. Said cottonballs absorb my bodily and psychic energy … Continue reading

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Resolutions

resolution # 1,003 :: june jordan I will love who loves meI will love as much as I am lovedI will hate who hates meI will feel nothing for everyone oblivious to meI will stay indifferent to indifferenceI will live hostile … Continue reading

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Shame

I feel shame at my nemetic habit, procrastination. I remember the underpinnings. I would see my step-father using his headaches as a reason to avoid paying bills, organizing his paperwork or even through unneeded items out. Prior to moving to … Continue reading

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Nature in the Winter

Every author and poet since the beginning of time has written about the cycle of life. For people who endure the four seasons: Winter = Clearing snow out of parking spots Spring = Flowers bloom, usually the Boston Marathon is … Continue reading

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Continuum

¡Feliz año nuevo! Welcome 2021! I really like this meme!!! It’s inclusive and pays homage to Coronavirus, people of color and the disabled. I found it under the Facebook gifs. By Wednesday of every week, I am very tired. My … Continue reading

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Christmas Day Defiled

I can usually accept the isolation and loneliness of the pandemic. Working at PIH helps me feel that I am doing something positive during these bleak times. Yet, I have experienced post traumatic stress and the end of year holidays … Continue reading

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Truly Living During a Blizzard and COVID19

In January and February of 2020, the Arredondo Family Foundation, the non-profit Carlos Arredondo and I started in 2015, was looking rosy. Work we had done since 2005 became an actual corporation and non-profit. The Foundation had money in the … Continue reading

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Hello world! ¡Hola! ¿Como va?

Step-by-step we go. Día por día, vivimos. Continue reading

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